12 October 2005 | 2:16 p.m.

"Lose it? I didn't lose it. It's not like, "Whoops! Where'd my job go?" I QUIT. Someone pass me the asparagus."

Um. Yeah. I went on to get shitfaced after yesterday�s entry. I headed over to Nina�s and hung out with her, Margaret and Linda. The 12 pack was about gone by 6:00 and I was in bed by 7:00. Nice Tuesday afternoon. I woke up at about 2:00 am, threw up (because I ate barely anything yesterday which is not good) and watched �Breaking Bonaduce� for an hour and went back to bed.

Yeah, I�m not so hot for Danny after watching a few episodes of that. And this is after years of having the hots for him. I guess there�s a difference between troubled bad boy and a completely psychotic lunatic. I�m all set with the lunatics. But you can�t tell me he�s always been like that, THAT bad. And he�s playing it up, too.

Anyway. About yesterday�s entry. First of all to Jesus: if you are reading my diary, why don�t you add me to your buddy list? I�d love to read your�s.

Also, that was kind of a funny sentence totally dissing discussing the naughty sex for talking about my birdfeeder. I was feeling good, I didn�t even realize that. I suppose it shows my priorities, huh? I don�t know, also, I haven�t written about the sex for a while. Not that we haven�t had it, not as much as we did this weekend though, I just haven�t felt compelled to write about it.

But I will say, it involved sex toys which we haven�t used in quite some time. Together, anyway. And one time it took us a total of 9 minutes for us to get off from start to finish. I kid you not. We are minutemen! �In Jamaica, the women laugh at the minuteman!�. (That is totally a quote from a commercial ten years ago. It used to crack me up). But it was really good. And intense. That�s why it went so quick.

He bought a new porn DVD the other day. I�m not such a big fan of it. Some of the shit is crazy. Some lame. I�m sorry, but I cannot get into scenes of blow jobs that last twenty frickin� minutes. I�m tired just watching. The other day when we were watching, it was our version of Mystery Science Theater 3000. We should tape record ourselves. One girl was really freaky, sticking one dildo up her ass and the other in her twat, I could barely watch without wincing. Then I flatly said, �Girls love that, ya know�.

I love that I can watch those movies with him so comfortably. I couldn�t with Dick. We tried once, at my suggestion, but all he did was harp on the guys� big huge cocks and how he thought I would only be thinking about them blah blah blah. And he was hung! I wanted to watch them with him because I�d had a boyfriend a few years before and we had watched one together once and the sex we had after was totally hot. Anyway. Hub is cool about it.

Oh. The boys are due home soon. Hub just came in with his new DVR cable box for our room. A new toy for a lucky boy. I had more to write about, but I�ve got to cut this short. Also, I have to leave in a bit to pick up Nina at drunky class. Then, I am going to check on the progress of the sand mandala at Rivier College.

Oh yeah! Before I forget. Tonight at 10:00 on MTV, �Made� is going to be about a girl from Nashua. Check it out if you want to see the city where I�m from.

Alrighty then! I am out! For real!

Listening to: The Bravery

Currently reading: "Guilty As Sin" Tami Hoag

Thinking about: Brushing my teeth. I know, random, but I just ate some popcorn.