18 February 2005 | 9:35 a.m.

My Head Hurts

I did rather well yesterday on my first official day back on the Weight Watchers Flex Points program. I even had one point left over which is so unlike me. It�s easy to have willpower when I�ve got 11 extra pounds hanging over my head. Well, not easy, but it helped a lot.

My head is killing me right now. I think it�s a sinus thing.

Hub disappeared this morning because it was snowing. Yey, a whole dusting, which is rapidly melting in the sun right now (goody, more mud). I thought this was going to wreck my day, which I have to go to the grocery store yet again and the boys need to both be dropped off at two different places and Daisy needs to be picked up, but he shouldn�t be gone all day. Good.

Hub has discovered the game �Spider Solitare� on the computer and is addicted to it. Everytime I turn around, he�s on this thing. It�s getting annoying, now I have to share this thing not only with both boys, but him too. WTF? Again, I need a laptop.

Anyway, I�ve used his recent obsession to nag at him about like he�s done to me. Some quotes I�ve thrown at him: �You�re on the computer AGAIN???�, �I have never seen anyone spend so much time on the computer�, �What, do you have a girlfriend online? Tell her I said hi�.
These are all things he�s said to me in the past (of course replace girlfriend with boyfriend), but he doesn�t get it.

When Rayanne and Smitty came to pick up their kid last night, I was telling them he�s chatting with his chick. They thought I was serious, especially when Smitty asked what she looks like and I bitterly said, �She�s a PIG!�.

Hub says, �At least I�m not talking to girls online� to which I said, �I don�t mind of you do, whatever� and he said the only reason he doesn�t is because he�s such a horrendous speller. AH-HA!!! HA! See, he�s not all Mr. Innocent like he wants to be thought of as.

My fucking head is killing me. Dammit.

In better news, Mr. Natural (um, don�t click that if you�re at work or if kids are nearby) came in yesterday. I was a little disappointed at first. Not as big as expected, but whatever. Just gives me another excuse to buy more stuff.

Anyway, Hub and I gave him a try last night. He really pays attention to his porn or something, because he knew just how to use that thing while he was eating me out. He is pretty talented, I do have to give him that. He doesn�t want to take Mr. Natural up the ass, though. Oh well, I tried. Anyway, Mr. Natural�s batteries were removed (which I guess is really important) and he was washed (that was fun, like giving a hand job with soap) and safely put away.

Both boys are going away for the weekend. Yey! Butthead is spending the weekend with a cousin. Beavis is going camping with the Boy Scouts. Yeah, in the winter. He can�t wait. They are going to the Boy Scout camp on Mt. Monadnock and they have heated cabins there.

Mt. Monadnock is one of the great little attractions around this area (by that I mean Southern NH, it�s about an hour or so away from me). It totally rocks. They say it�s the second most climbed mountain in the world (second to Mt. Fiji, I believe, wherever the hell that is). Beavis and I climbed most of it when he was five, but didn�t get to the summit on account of the fact that we hiked up it at the end of April, right in the middle of �mud season�. At one point, the trail became a running stream of water. That�s when I decided to turn around. Even back then, Beavis was disappointed, �We have to get to the top, Mommy!� and I said, �Get me a boat, then�. I�m planning on taking Mickey and Minnie up one day early this summer, after mud season but before it gets too hot.

Yak, yak, yak. I did a google image search for pics but didn�t find anything worthy of stealing. Sorry. I�ll take my own when I go in May or June.

Anyway. I�ve been wondering about what�s gonna go down when someone I know reads this diary. See how I say �when� instead of �if�. It�ll happen, what with me posting pics and seeing as my whole personal situation is fairly unique. A year ago, I�d have been mortified. This diary is where I just let it all out, regardless of what I think people will think of me. And it�s turned out that people like me despite all my dirty little secrets, so I won�t be quite as mortified as I would have been a year ago. But I don�t think I could give this thing up once I get discovered. I might lock up, but that�s as far as I�d go. I�ve invested way too much in this diary to just give it up. This is one of my favorite parts of my day. It�s also done wonders for me. I don�t feel like such a freak anymore.

It�s so funny to go back and read my early postings here. I was so paranoid and vague. I really thought The Douchebag would find this. It probably won�t be her in the end. It�ll be the person I�ll least expect. If it hasn�t happened already.

I was thinking of all this after x-plicity�s post yesterday. (Internet psychos are the best, man. I can only speculate as to the full story, but I�m sure it�s way more interesting than the post, which was quite intriguing). The best thing I have going for me is that Hub has no patience for reading, which he says he can�t but he can, he just has to put a lot of effort into it to have any kind of comprehension. So he wouldn�t be all sitting here for hours reading this. That�s a plus.

The business deal is taking forever, too. Now Hub and his boss are haggling over who�s going to cover the warranties. They need to end this so we can get going on the spring, which we should be sending bids out like right now. Anyway, yeah, last week his boss told his lawyer, �whatever they want, do it�. He wants out bad. But now, I guess he�s looked at the contract finally. They have an appointment Monday with boss�s lawyer and Hub�s accountant, and hopefully they�ll work something out. WTF?

I have never met Hub�s boss. I�ve seen him from behind one time, that�s it. I could be standing in line at Dunkins right behind him and not know who he is. But, I can surmise from Hub�s stories, that he is just like my husband except he�s educated. They sound exactly alike. That�s probably why they can�t stand each other most of the time.

My head is absolutely throbbing. I�m going to go take something for it.

Sayonara and all that shit. Have a good weekend, weekday d-landers.

Listening to: A mix of radio ads and "64 Zoo Lane" on Noggin. Great for my head.

Currently reading: "The Blue Nowhere" Jeffery Deaver. "Bad Boy" was disappointing. I have a feeling this one won't be.

Thinking about: Ibuprofen. And did that kid just shit again?!?!?