19 April 2006 | 10:20 a.m.

"I saw you two boys stranded alone in the darkness and I said to myself, WHAT WOULD JESUS DO?!?"

The little credit union that I used to work at, that actually merged last year with a much bigger credit union, got robbed yesterday. No one was hurt, thankfully. Three of my old co-workers were in the building at the time, another old co-worker was just coming back from her lunch hour when one of the guys (there were two) grabbed her and escorted her into the building at gunpoint.

Scary. I used to worry about robberies everyday that I worked there. Because banks and credit unions get robbed all the time. And, it�s in the perfect location, as there is a residential neighborhood right there and if you know it well enough, you can zip right out on foot through the neighborhood and hit the Merrimack River and disappear in no time. Evidently, however, these guys went the other way.

If I eat anymore ham, I�m going to turn into a pig. I�m getting kind of sick of it, but then again, it�s a Honeybaked! And that�s just too good to pass up even after three days straight of it.

Last night was a big informational meeting about the 8th graders upcoming trip to DC that Beavis is going on. Hub was supposed to be home to watch Minnie and Mickey, but by 6:50 (meeting was at 7:00), I knew he wasn�t. I cursed his name knowing that, number one, I�d be late and have to stand in the stifling hot sweaty gym, and number two, have to deal with the kids.

He saved himself by showing up ten minutes into the meeting and taking them. Thank you! So then it was just me and the boy standing there in the sweaty gym.

That is going to be one sweet trip. They are going all over that city. Beavis is going to love it, it�s all right up his alley, going to gubment buildings and war memorials. And room with his three pals, which is going to be, um, interesting. Fortunately, one of these boys is rather responsible and I have named him room babysitter. Beavis and the other two already designated him Room Key Master.

He leaves May 2 and will be gone for five glorious days! The woman who coordinates the whole trip, and has for 25 years, talked last night about phone calls. Kids will be able to make calls from payphones at meal times and that�s it. Cells are forbidden, and when she gave the reasons (theft, ability to have unmonitored conversations with strangers from town and late night phone calls being among them), I was on the same page as her.

She then said this, �If you need to, send a phone card. Or, you know, these kids are good at being away from you, so maybe you might enjoy not hearing from them three times a day�. I was all, �Hallelujah! Beavis, don�t call me everyday�. Give the kids some freedom. Knowing that I feel that way, Beavis will call me at least once a day. Not because I want him to, but because he�ll miss his mommy.

Hub and I have discussed further the option of having Hilda move back in. We already have a room for her, so that�s taken care of. The old office that Hub built for the business last year, hasn�t been used for much more than storage. We could make it bigger with minimal effort. So, we have the space.

As far as money, Hub wants to make sure that Shauna pays child support. I can tell you right now, not gonna happen. And because she is female, even if a support order is put into effect, she won�t be held accountable. Bitches get away with non-payment in this state all the time, especially where she has two other kids in her custody she�ll get away with it. So, let�s not hold onto that hope.

Hub talked to Shauna yesterday about it and of course she was like, �No, she stays with me�. Whatever. Then she told him, �She lies to me all the time, so that�s why I don�t do anything for her�. C-U-Next-Tuesday. Just cuz your kid lies, that�s your excuse for not buying her, like, clothes and shit?

She gets all bent out of shape cuz Hilda smokes cigarettes. Hypocrite! She�s a chain smoker, her husband is, everyone in her family is, and she�s shocked that Hilda smokes? But it was okay when she found out about Butthead doing it. Butthead is the one with asthma.

I really believe that Hilda is rebelling against her mother in a big way. The woman has her priorities all screwed up and while I make sure not to point it out, the girl has pretty much figured it out. Hilda has to do most of the housework, plus babysit her little sister Oceana, who is two, whenever she wants her to.

And all these problems she has with Hilda, the lying, the stealing, the smoking, just so happen to be behaviors that we haven�t seen out of her at our house in a long time. She�s one girl at her mom�s house, a different one here.

Plus that counseling thing. Shauna has been so hell bent against it. What is she trying to hide?

Hilda talked about the racism in the house that she hates. She said, �I feel like I�m just a person living here� as opposed to a family member. No matter how much I bitch about her, and I sure as hell have, she is certainly treated like family here and not some live in babysitter/housekeeper.

Same thing happened with Butthead. When he was 12, he thought it�d be great to live with his mom. It didn�t take long for him to figure it out, and he�s been back since he was 14 and would sooner cut off his own arm than live with his mom again. He�s even told Hub, if Hub dies, he either wants to stay with me, or live with an aunt, anyone but his mom.

Now Hilda is at that point. Hub was wondering if she�d pull the same shit that went down a few years ago with the circumstances why she moved back with Shauna, and I don�t think she would, really. I really think she�s learned. Plus, in me, she�s found someone who she can talk to about things that are important to an almost 15 year old girl, like boys, clothes, music, stupid shit her friends do, etc.

OMG. Hilda has really taken to Robert and Rhonda�s oldest daughter who is 21. She�s a sweet girl who just had a baby in December. They talk and stuff when Hilda�s here, and it�s harmless. Well, evidently Hilda has been talking to her on the phone at home and Shauna is all, �I don�t want her hanging around with that girl she�s too old and she smokes!�. (I guess the baby is no problem).

What�s with this smoking thing, I don�t know. Shauna fucking smokes! Like a chimney!

Anyway. Hilda has this friend, I�ll call her �Ashley�. Ashley is the niece of an old co-worker form the credit union, and she lives in the trailer park that Nina�s mom just moved out of, and Nina�s friend Laura still lives there and is very close with Ashley and her sister, since they are being raised by the worst single dad EVER.

Since I know Nina and her mom and Jess, her aunt, I know all about what Ashley does. Ashley drinks every day, she smokes weed, does whatever drug she can get a hold of, and just lost her virginity to a 17 year old kid. Ashley just turned 14. But, Shauna has *no problem* with Ashley. (Yes, she smokes butts, too, of course).

See what I mean by skewed priorities?

Speaking of priorities, I need to go get some food for the house. Not ham, of course, but important stuff like milk and spring water.

Unedited, raw and rambley. That�s me.

Ciao.

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